Friday, April 25, 2008

We want this machine OFF, and we want it off RIGHT NOW!!! (Originally posted on MySpace on Wednesday, August 03, 2005)

Those of you in my friends list will have been able to read my last post...but those of you not...well too bad. It had some shit about THQ in it and I know they have BIG BROTHER eyes watching...and frankly I didn't want to deal with it. So here's another blog to make up for those of you who read my blog and haven't added me (if that is possible I don't know).

So there has been a lot of drama lately with my brother Greg and his wife Genevieve. It would appear from her behavior that she hates his side of the family and is determined to assimilate him into her family. I really want to give her the benefit of the doubt as she has always seemed to be nothing but nice to me personally...but I didn't grow up with a mother who was a professional psychotherapist without picking up a little bit on how to read people (my close friends will surely attest to my drunken psychoanalysis of them on many occasions...especially Aaron and Becca).

Anyway...I have a strong Bullshit meter. It is I think why I stopped acting...I just can't STAND people who are duplicitous and say one thing and mean another. Most people think they are so sly...so...I don't know, like if they say exactly what they should and they don't EVER give any indication of it being false...that they can get away with basically lying to your face...And it bugs me. It bugs me because I'd rather deal with my friends and family in an honest way. You got a problem...talk to me about it...you got a problem with ME talk to me about it cause I can TELL you've got a problem...and it isn't going to fix itself. A lot of times this gets me into trouble because I overanalyze and usually feel as if I know where a person is coming form and generally don't allow them to SHOW me who they are...it comes I think from moving so much as a kid and having to make friends fast alot. You start to see archtypical personalities and the whole sort of general sub-conciousness of the society takes over. Here's an example of people I've known who ahve been erily similar to each other in behavior and action, and for whom I sort of ascribe a certain samness in how I act towards them:

JOhn Bloch and John Wallis, Jerry Trainor and Ben Holley, Karin Kane and Sara Heighway (that was a joke...just seeing if they were paying attention...cause they hate being compared to each other). Tom Dominico and Jeff Canata, Faline England and Amy Jo Steele.

Of course many of you will not know who the hell these people are...but you get the idea...like...as if these people couldn't occupy the same space or the fabric of time itself would implode...

So anyway...I just get this feeling from Greg that something is wrong...cause he tries to hard to mask his discomfort. I can sense that all the fucking drama around getting together for the camping trip is just due to the fact that Genevive is trying to minimize the amount of time she has to interact with us as a family.

No-One in my family really likes her. We all try...but she has really pissed us all off. And it is a rare thing when someone isn't liked by my mom AND my dad. Usually a quality that my mom hates is loved by my dad and vice versa. It just seems as if she has no interest in becoming a part of OUR family..in allowing greg to continue to be a part of our family...

Little things...like I don't know...like how it seems as if they intentionally got a cell phone carrier that no one in OUR side of the family had so they could cop this "we're low on minutes" excuse in not calling us.

And I really wonder how planned out it was that they would move up to Washington and live within an hour or two of her extended family and drive eight hours to go to family reunions, when they can't be bothered to drive out to the camp trip...

I don't know. I could be out of line...but I see a lot of trouble brewing...and it might just end up that Greg is a estranged somewhat from the family.

I hate to keep harping on Becca and how great she is but here goes: I'm so god damned glad that becca gets along with my mom and jim AND my DAD I mean they are all such different people and I really feel that she has tried to reach out to all of them and really wants to be a part of the family.

It's hard...I'm still gettting used to the fact that the arnold brother's are all married now and it adds this strange dynamic to holidays and family time...

oh well...

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